I’ve been sitting a lot with what I wanted to do here on Substack. I’ve also been sitting a lot with what Substack even is. What brought me here? What is it you’re hoping or searching to find or see here? And are these two things even related?
I’m feeling more drawn to experiment with this space as a pure outlet, which you are more than welcome to follow along with. But I also realized I didn’t want to get myself trapped in a format, which I had almost done. Even now, this style of writing which I’m finding myself doing is not the kind of writing I’d been planning to do, nor the space I was planning to create.
I’ve been slowly realizing that the kind of content Substack is incentivizing people to write is a kind of social media style exposé, an updated LiveJournal. Whether this was an intention or not I’m not sure, but I’m definitely seeing it as a trend, both in the way other people are writing, and, well, the way I currently find myself writing at this exact moment.
I’d much rather occupy a strange obscure corner of the internet and have some seldom visitors than try to strive, well, for anything. Maybe I’ve been reading too much Jiddu Krishnamurti.
So with that said I’ll just being doing whatever I please here. Hope you enjoy the chaos!
<3 Evan
PIGEONS
A SECRET WALLET WHERE I KEEP MY GRIEF
A STONE FACE CARVED BY ANCIENT ARTISTS
AGAIN IT RISES
((slippers across tiles
slipped across tile
slippers crossed tile))
& there is no place to store it
the moist BUBBLES that the brain makes.
I want to roll it into a ball
bake it
& carry it with me to the park:
breaking it into small pieces
I toss it to the pigeons
I’ve been reading that I’ll just be not sure, but I’m finding myself trapped not in a format, which I’m not not I’m planning to not do.
I’ve been sitting a lot with sitting in this as a pure outlet, which you are than try to strive, well, the way other occupy a strange corner of the way I currently find myself trapped in a format, which you are more than welcome to writing, and, well, for anythings related even is. What is incentivizing people to writing which you are writing? I’m definitely seeing doing.
Writing by a lake, watching by a lake, a pigeon flies by.
And NOW, a YouTube video of a pigeon eating bread.
I like the Substacks that follow very little format! Looking forward to doing more "whatever" here too ❤️